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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

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Half the Perfect World
By Madeleine Peyroux
Smile
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Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile


Monday, July 06, 2009



idontknowwhattotitlethis

The title of this poem is
Courage is well-concealed fear
It works until pretending to be okay doesn't.

You know how you are so afraid of rejection
You just bottle up inclinations, attraction, courage
And throw that bottle in your ocean of confusion
Choosing never to take the plunge
Until one day
That cap came loose
And amidst the whirlpool of emotions
Your struggling breaths teach you
The best way to find yourself
Is to lose yourself first
Waves push you ashore foreign land
A product of your shy denial
Singular, you
While looking for some form of civilisation
Tripped over that rock, of unshakable emotion
And stare in wonderment at the number of bottles piled up before you
But the sand feels so comfortable and warm and safe against your palms.
Doesn’t it remind you of someone?
Someone better save me from myself
Before sleep takes me and we elope to dreamland
Helpless again, at the mercy of  suppressed emotions.
Maybe sleep will do me better
Only then is dream a reality
And reality, a dream.


(geesh. so mushy.)


Sunday, July 05, 2009

this is going to be really emo and so i'll make this short and quick and then delete it.

home life is happy sad frustrating lonely. school is fun and joy that is often overshadowed by the competitive environment. friends are awesome but sometimes you just cant understand them even though you think you know them. i cant seem to focus on the positive side tonight. does this means something deeper? does the unexplainable hold more enlightenment than the comprehensive?

inside im suppressing something that's close to bursting. a mish mash of emotions, they say you're just growing up. well i hate this feeling and would really like some direction. or distraction.

maybe i'm too afraid to admit it.

i shall depart with deliberate ambiguity and return having deleted and forgotten this episode's rant.


nice to know i'm not alone

hannah ♥ says:
LIFE SUCKS MAN. everything is so darned tough, everyone is so darned critical... crying makes me feel so gay
hannah ♥ says:
like.. you're trying so hard to make things work and they dont even care right
and then when you press them, they're like what's your problem
its like, yeah we know you got stuff to do but so do we... you do your part and thats all but we have to do our part AND make sure everyone else does theirs

it's not that we're asking for recognition, we're asking that people show some appreciation i guess. :) GO HANNAH!


"Scout commonsensical enough to perceive this failure immediately, is frustrated by her inability to understand why her teacher acts as she does. and why she, scout, continually incurs disfavour for well-intended actions"
dont we all feel this way once in a while.



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